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I'm Donnell in my book is from fear to

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love my private journey it was published

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a year ago and since then I've had a lot

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of people writing to me contacting me

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and usually the first thing they say is

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please don't think I'm crazy but and

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they want to tell me about their alien

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experiences and I'm just fascinated with

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that because it it validates me and my

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experiences plus it gives people a safe

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outlet to talk about it because a lot of

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people don't feel safe talking about

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these things so when I was first asked

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to speak I did my usual method of

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getting a journal and putting it next to

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my bed getting a pen and asking okay

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guys tell me what to say and might the

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usual method is that they wake me up

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around 3:00 a.m. and I start writing and

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I write sometimes just words or

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paragraphs and in the morning I may or

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may not remember what I wrote in the

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night but after about two or three weeks

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it comes together into a nice coherent

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story or message but this time it

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started in December I got nothing

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January came and went February came and

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went March started up and I was standing

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in my kitchen one day and starting to

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panic because this is happening in April

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and I said why am I not getting any

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messages and I immediately heard this

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very distinctive male voice in my right

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ear and I know that to be quote who is

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my main alien guide and he said we do

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not yet know who will be in attendance

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so here I'm thinking basic human things

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like what am I going to wear and the

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aliens have such a different agenda

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they're thinking they need to gear their

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messages depending on who's going to be

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hearing them and who's going to be

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listening and they made it very clear

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that they see everyone as an individual

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we are at least me I tend to think that

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the aliens look at us like we look at an

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anthill or an ant farm for the longest

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time I thought we were an ant farm for

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the aliens but they've made it clear

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that were absolutely not

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that we are individuals they know us and

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recognize the features individuals and

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that's why they were waiting to see who

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would be listening to this message

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before they told me and then shortly

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after that I

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started waking up at 3:00 a.m. writing

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down little notes and sure enough I put

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together things to talk about that made

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sense and they were geared for specific

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people to listen to I'm sure the aliens

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they've always approached us well for

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many years they approached us in a

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really frightening way the stories are

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out there they did it to me you're

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laying in your safe warm bed and all of

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a sudden you're jolted awake and these

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big black eyes are staring at you and

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this face very close to your face and

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you would actually be nose-to-nose

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except they don't have a nose it's just

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pretty creepy and scary and you're just

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so scared that all you can do is scream

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you can't even find words to talk and I

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did that for many years and I know

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that's happened to many other people but

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over the years they've learned from us

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as we've learned from them and they

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learned to approach us in a more

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friendly way so now they're as they

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approach people they try to do it in a

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nicer way and one example is a lady from

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Germany has written to me after she read

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my book and she said that she was

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approached by aliens when she was a

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little girl but they terrified her so

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she said go away leave me alone I don't

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ever want to see you again but now you

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know later years she's understanding

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that they might have been friendly after

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all and she'd like to give it another

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shot and so she invited them back and a

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little bit afraid they might be angry

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they might retaliate or something but

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that's really not what they do

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they're just all about love and

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compassion forgiveness and acceptance

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they don't have revenge like humans do

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they don't even think that way so if

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that's happened to you and as a child

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and you told them to go away and they

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did go away but now you're thinking

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you'd like them back all you need to do

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is ask because we have free will and

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they'll more than likely be happy to

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come back and be friendly about it and

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that's what they did with her they kind

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of told her they notify you

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telepathically if they're gonna come

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visit and so she woke up in the middle

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of the night and there were three gray

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aliens in her bedroom and just as she

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started to panic one of them step

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forward and transformed into Shirley

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Temple which made her laugh you know

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kind of stopped her from

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and they actually held hands and she

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said the alien felt very soft and they

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exchanged messages a little bit and then

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the alien stepped back and became a grey

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alien and then the three of them

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disappeared the whole experience was

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very pleasant and actually fun for her

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and that's such a change from how it

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used to be in the 60s and 70s when they

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just came and terrified everyone and it

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shows also how they individualize their

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contacts because this lady obviously

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likes Shirley Temple and sees that it's

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a pleasant fun happy thing whereas me

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I'm not a big Shirley Temple fan so they

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have never approached me looking like

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Shirley Temple I like animals they come

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to me looking like a deer or an owl or a

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dog sometimes so they are they

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individualize the approached each person

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which is very nice and they are now

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telling me that they have extended an

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invitation that they really really want

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to connect with more and more people and

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they like to do it individually one on

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one because you know how groups are

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groups of humans that get together get

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violent get rowdy start fires they know

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it wouldn't be a good deal if they came

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in as a group visitation so unless it's

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a small group maybe of people who

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meditate or Channel or something they

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might approach them but other than that

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they feel more comfortable meeting us

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one on one at this time and because

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people have free will you have to ask

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they won't just come in on you and

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they've reached a lot of people like me

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who are more the sensitive emotional

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empathic kind and we've pretty much done

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all we can as far as saying they're

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friendly they want to help so now they

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like to reach more the left brain people

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who are like scientists researchers

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doctors because they do have technology

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they want to share with us and they

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could download blueprints to me for a

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free energy machine and it's not going

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to help a whole lot because I don't have

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an engineering background or I wouldn't

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know how to translate that real well but

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they they really would like to work with

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people who are more logical minded who

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would understand maybe blueprints that

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they could send to them in dreams or

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but right now it's set up so that people

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with the scientific logical type minds

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don't want to believe in the aliens so

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that right now that's the mission is to

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kind of bridge that gap and maybe get

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people like me to work with scientific

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people or just for those people to open

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up more and may be more accepting of the

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idea that maybe the aliens are going to

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drop suggestions or ideas down into the

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mass consciousness and they can take

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that and take advantage of it because

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that is one of the big messages from the

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aliens they care about the earth their

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caretakers of the earth and humanity

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we're caretakers of the earth originally

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the Garden of Eden was the whole planet

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Earth and we haven't done a really good

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job of taking care of it so there want

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to help with that and we can't just

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there's a lot of people who think that

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one day we'll all just get swept up into

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a spaceship and we'll just hang out

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there while the aliens come and clean up

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the earth but that's just not how it

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works you know where we made the mess

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we're here to clean it up we're here to

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do the work and that's kind of like a

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teenager laying on their bed playing a

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video game and expecting mom to come in

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and do the laundry and vacuuming these

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doesn't work that way we're here we have

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to be the ones to do it but they will

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help as far as approaching people

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they're trying to be less threatening

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trying to be less intimidating and

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they've learned that we give each other

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gifts when we care about someone we like

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to give gifts we like to receive gifts

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and so they've kind of taken a step

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further and now they present us with

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gifts sometimes and that's also a

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confirmation that they're real and the

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first time that I was aware what I found

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was a gift from the aliens my dog

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actually was pretty instrumental in

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helping me find some of them I think the

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dogs work with the aliens because I've

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always had dogs and I've always wanted a

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dog to sleep on the bed with me and I

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think it was kind of a subconscious

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thing to be protected from these

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nighttime visitors but the dogs never

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barked at them the dogs never growl

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why is that and they're very protective

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you know you'd think they would protect

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me when the aliens come and also dogs

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are a really good judge of character and

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if my dog likes somebody then they're

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probably okay so that helped me to

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accept that the aliens are good guys

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because my dogs never barked at them and

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so my dog I would take him for walks and

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we were crossing the street one day and

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he stopped at this silver shiny object

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in the middle of the road and he would

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not move and I'm like let's get out of

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the road and finally so I picked up this

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silver object and cross the street and

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looked at it and it was a little silver

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ingot that said inspire and that was

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right about the time I was starting to

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think maybe I should write a book about

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my experiences to help other people who

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are going through this and that would

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inspire people and and also when you

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pick there's certain objects when you

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pick them up you can kind of get a sense

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get a feeling from them and I got a

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sense that that was put there for me and

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it's kind of old looking it was in the

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street it had been run over a few times

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and that was at a time in my life I was

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struggling I just had surgery and I

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wasn't feeling my best and I kind of

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felt run over and drug around by life

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and so you know they really they operate

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on multi-layered levels so they they

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approach me in many levels that way in

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the mid 90s I lived in Florida and I

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would drive back and forth through

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Tarpon Springs Florida to and from work

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every day and I passed this big yellow

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pawn shop that was on a corner big

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two-story building and I never thought

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much of it because I don't really shop

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in pawn shops but one day I opened up my

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grandmother's jewelry box which I used

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it was a big wooden inlay beautiful

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inlaid box that came over with her from

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Scotland in the early 1900s and there

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was this beautiful dolphin silver

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dolphin attached to a nice quartz

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crystal and I'd never seen it before

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and I asked my daughter I asked my

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husband they had never seen it I didn't

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know where it came from I didn't think

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much of it and a couple and I was

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thinking oh I need to find a chain for

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that a couple days later I opened up the

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jewelry box and there

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was perfect serpentine silver chain and

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as I slid the dolphin charm onto the

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chain I was just struck with this really

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strong memory of stopping in that pawn

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shop in Tarpon Springs the big tall

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yellow one and buying the dolphin

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crystal and I had a very clear image of

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what the store looked like it was bright

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and sunny big windows and there was this

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little tiny lady behind the counter who

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insisted that I take the dolphin crystal

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and it was this beautiful jewelry

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display glass case very clear memory and

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I didn't think anything of it and about

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three months later I got off work early

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one day I was driving home past the pawn

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shop and I thought oh I'm gonna go back

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in there because they had such a nice

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jewelry selection and I walked in the

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door and it just was such a shock to my

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reality because that was not the memory

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it was this little tiny more like a

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classic pawn shop it was very small

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crowded narrow aisles dark bars on the

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windows that was not the place I

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remember getting that and so there's no

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other way to explain where and the

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little lady behind the counter well that

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was probably an alien so it's odd that

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things like that happen and and kind of

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confirms it's it's a way of them

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bridging realities too they actually can

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manifest physical things into our world

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for the longest time I didn't think they

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could but these are things that have

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just appeared they look old all of them

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always look old and worn which is

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interesting too like they have a history

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like maybe they've been passed through

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other generations or something about 10

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years later there's they experience time

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differently than us because we measure

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time as we revolve around the Sun they

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obviously experience time differently so

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sometimes it's hard to gauge sometimes

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they come in cycles and they come

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frequently

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sometimes it's actually a couple years

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before I have another experience but it

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was ten years before I got another what

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I call gift it was 2008 and I had since

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gotten divorced and moved back to

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Southern California but I had the same

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dog and we went for a walk in a park one

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day

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and he stopped at a particular tree

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lifted his leg and then he wouldn't move

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and I was like come on let's go and and

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he kind of just stopped and looked up at

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me and I looked at the tree and on a

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branch right at my eye level was hanging

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a plastic rosary blue plastic on a dirty

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kind of string it looked old and it

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looked like it had been made by a child

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maybe and so I looked around to see if

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there were children at the park there

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was no one there nobody nearby and when

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I touched it again I got that feeling

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that it was placed there just for me and

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I knew it was because the night before I

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had asked the aliens about spiritual

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things I've been doing some reading and

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there are a lot of theories out there

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that aliens are evil their demonic their

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fallen angels and I was raised Christian

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I believe in God and I didn't want to do

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anything that was dangerous spiritually

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or harmful so I had been a little

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concerned and I had asked the aliens you

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know about spiritual matters very next

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day I level my dog takes me to this tree

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and there's this rosary and I remember

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thinking well it's kind of a cheap

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little plastic rosary but I accepted it

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with gratitude they want to see

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gratitude put it around my neck slept

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with it that night the next day we went

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for a walk my dog took me to the same

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park which was unusual he likes to go on

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different rounds and went to the same

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tree and they're on the same branch

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at eye level was a very nice necklace

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with a cross on it and it was onyx beads

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with hematite beads and that the cross

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itself was made of hematite and it had a

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nice sterling silver clasp and so I

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don't know if they thought I was being

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ungrateful for the little plastic rosary

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or if they just were testing me to see

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if I recognize the spirit in which it

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was given and it didn't matter about the

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dollar value I never quite know what

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their motives are but that was

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confirmation for me again that

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spiritually it's okay and I never did

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feel threatened or evil or bad things

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from them I've always felt loved

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acceptance kindness all the good things

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that religions teach anyway and a couple

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months later I was crossing the street

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and I found a little um symbol home

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which I think the Buddhists and the

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several other religions the Hindus

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several other religions use and I was

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immediately given the message that they

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wanted to ensure that they weren't just

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endorsing Christianity that they respect

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all faiths that humans have and they

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also told me that that's one of the

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things that intrigues them about humans

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is our faith they know that life on

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Earth is hard they know that we all

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struggle a lot they see it and they've

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told me that they really respect the

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fact that any of us have any kind of

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faith at all with the kind of world we

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live in and the things we face day to

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day so that that was very reassuring to

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me also

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and then another gift that they gave me

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that was really meaningful was in 2015 I

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woke up one morning and went in my

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kitchen and there was this little copper

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butterfly laying in the middle of my

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kitchen floor and I live alone and I

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hadn't had anyone else to my house in a

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few days I would have seen it the day

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before I thought and I don't know where

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it came from and I picked it up and

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again it looks aged and worn and when I

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picked it up I got the message that that

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was placed there for me it was meant for

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me because I had been recently diagnosed

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with an autoimmune disease lupus and the

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symbol for lupus is the butterfly

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because it causes a butterfly-shaped

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rash on your face when it's flaring so

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they presented me with this copper

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butterfly because I had also been asking

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they've helped me with some other health

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issues like after I had surgery they've

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come to my bedside and alleviated my

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pain and croaked my big alien praying

439
00:18:01,680 --> 00:18:00,160
mantis alien friend has helped me a lot

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with migraine headaches over the years

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to the point that I almost never get

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00:18:08,220 --> 00:18:06,610
them anymore so I was begging for help

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with this lupus because I was suffering

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at the time really having a

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our time with it and when I picked up

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that butterfly it was just made known to

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me that they're aware they know they

448
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know the struggle but at this time

449
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they're not permitted to help it's

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something I need to experience in this

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lifetime for some reason but I don't

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like to dwell on just tangible gifts

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because that's a little superficial but

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it also it confirms that they're real

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they're they pay attention they're

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watching but the most important gifts

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they give are the intangible things like

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a sense of spirituality the knowing that

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our reality is so much more than what we

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see day-to-day there's so many levels of

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reality in different realities different

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beings that care for us that really want

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to work with humanity is brothers and

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sisters and they want to walk among us

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they're just not really safe to be able

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to do that right now and as far as the

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greys a lot of people think that the

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greys are mean or bullies whatever

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because they're not real friendly

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towards us and they paralyze us when

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they take us places but as I was getting

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to know them as they were getting to

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know me they were allowing me to wake up

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a little more and come out of the

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paralysis while I was still on board a

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ship I was laying on the exam table I

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was starting to move around and a gray

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was standing next to me and I just kind

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of panicked thinking there's a gray

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right there and I kind of threw my arm

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and I threw him against the wall of the

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ship and he just felt like a soft ripe

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overripe banana wrapped in a silk scarf

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he was a soft and mushy and I felt so

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bad and I realized that's why they

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paralyzes humans are big and strong and

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we're pretty brutal and violent overall

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and they're very delicate and frail and

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so they don't do it to be mean or

490
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intimidating they do it for their own

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self-preservation now that I'm older

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they seem to be not as physically active

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with me and I know part of the abducting

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and taking on board the ship is their

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fertility program where they harvest

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eggs and that and I know they did that

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with me when I was young

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and of course now I'm older so they

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don't participate in that with me

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anymore

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and that was never really traumatic for

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me though they never were brutal or

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hurtful or anything they were always

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very respectful and explained but they

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were doing and I was actually kind of

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honored that they chose me to

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participate in their program and now

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though well as soon as I accepted that

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they were real they they full-on started

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taking me on board the ship giving me

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tours showing me the control rooms and

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like they were real proud of what they

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had done and then now it's more just

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messages it's more telepathic messages I

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just get feelings intuitions hunches I

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don't get like taken away the way I did

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and and I kind of miss that it's as

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traumatizing as it was and it's

519
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terrifying as it was it's and I know

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they're there when I when I ask

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questions I do get answers not always

522
00:21:31,590 --> 00:21:26,680
immediately but I'll get either in

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00:21:35,490 --> 00:21:31,600
dreams or messages intuitions on it I'll

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know it was from them actually last

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night I was awake in the night worried

526
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about something and I just felt this

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calming presence come over me and I knew

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it was one of the aliens probably the

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one I call Otacon ah she's very feminine

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and nurturing and caring like a loving

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grandmother would be kind of and I

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looked at the clock and it was 313 and

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that's another clue

534
00:22:04,770 --> 00:22:01,810
three o'clock 333 313 that's usually a

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00:22:07,670 --> 00:22:04,780
sign that they're nearby but no the

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actual physical going on board a ship

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going to the alien places like they used

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to take me to these caves amazing caves

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00:22:20,250 --> 00:22:17,740
that were like lit the they had

540
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underground rivers and the water itself

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glowed so much that it lit the cave by

542
00:22:26,280 --> 00:22:24,580
the water and there would be alien

543
00:22:28,650 --> 00:22:26,290
children laughing and playing and

544
00:22:31,800 --> 00:22:28,660
sliding down these rock water slides and

545
00:22:33,480 --> 00:22:31,810
that was just an amazing place and I

546
00:22:35,630 --> 00:22:33,490
haven't been taken there in many years

547
00:22:37,110 --> 00:22:35,640
now so it's almost like they were

548
00:22:39,390 --> 00:22:37,120
pounding me with you

549
00:22:41,400 --> 00:22:39,400
messages until I finally sat down wrote

550
00:22:44,700 --> 00:22:41,410
the book got the message out I'm talking

551
00:22:46,620 --> 00:22:44,710
about it and now that's what I was meant

552
00:22:50,280 --> 00:22:46,630
to do and now they've moved on they're

553
00:22:52,140 --> 00:22:50,290
working with other people and for me it

554
00:22:54,150 --> 00:22:52,150
I'm more just meant to talk about it and

555
00:22:56,490 --> 00:22:54,160
tell other people that it's okay they're

556
00:22:58,580 --> 00:22:56,500
not going to hurt you they they want to

557
00:23:02,310 --> 00:22:58,590
help they want to be a force for good

558
00:23:05,430 --> 00:23:02,320
when I was younger I know they did like

559
00:23:06,570 --> 00:23:05,440
an egg harvesting it was kind of like a

560
00:23:08,280 --> 00:23:06,580
pelvic exam

561
00:23:10,590 --> 00:23:08,290
I guess they tried to make it as

562
00:23:14,130 --> 00:23:10,600
comfortable as possible considering the

563
00:23:16,710 --> 00:23:14,140
circumstances it would be an exam table

564
00:23:19,890 --> 00:23:16,720
crota my main alien friend is a 7-foot

565
00:23:21,720 --> 00:23:19,900
tall praying mantis and I actually when

566
00:23:23,030 --> 00:23:21,730
I was younger I called him the doctor so

567
00:23:25,680 --> 00:23:23,040
apparently he's the one who did the

568
00:23:29,010 --> 00:23:25,690
procedures and he would explain things

569
00:23:29,760 --> 00:23:29,020
and he would say we're just checking on

570
00:23:35,490 --> 00:23:29,770
you

571
00:23:37,860 --> 00:23:35,500
teenager when they started so I I was

572
00:23:39,510 --> 00:23:37,870
paralyzed at the time and that's when I

573
00:23:42,090 --> 00:23:39,520
was still waking up screaming and

574
00:23:44,430 --> 00:23:42,100
terrified didn't know if it was a dream

575
00:23:46,470 --> 00:23:44,440
didn't know if it was real but I'd wake

576
00:23:48,570 --> 00:23:46,480
up with bruises and nosebleeds so I had

577
00:23:50,190 --> 00:23:48,580
this awful suspicion that this was

578
00:23:52,310 --> 00:23:50,200
really happening but I couldn't really

579
00:23:55,110 --> 00:23:52,320
tell anybody because it sounded so crazy

580
00:23:58,230 --> 00:23:55,120
but he was so reassuring and so

581
00:24:01,020 --> 00:23:58,240
comforting that it just was okay it was

582
00:24:03,060 --> 00:24:01,030
like I was a part of something so much

583
00:24:06,600 --> 00:24:03,070
bigger than me and so much bigger and

584
00:24:08,340 --> 00:24:06,610
more meaningful that I should be happy

585
00:24:11,880 --> 00:24:08,350
that they chose me or something

586
00:24:13,919 --> 00:24:11,890
and I think I was in my 30s when they

587
00:24:15,900 --> 00:24:13,929
when I had accepted that this was real

588
00:24:18,150 --> 00:24:15,910
this is really going on they had

589
00:24:20,549 --> 00:24:18,160
harvested eggs because I had I guess

590
00:24:22,140 --> 00:24:20,559
they call it a missing pregnancy where

591
00:24:24,600 --> 00:24:22,150
you actually have all the symptoms of

592
00:24:27,180 --> 00:24:24,610
pregnancy and then suddenly it's gone

593
00:24:30,090 --> 00:24:27,190
and my husband at the time it had a

594
00:24:31,560 --> 00:24:30,100
vasectomy so I knew I wasn't but I had

595
00:24:33,060 --> 00:24:31,570
all the symptoms and everything and then

596
00:24:37,410 --> 00:24:33,070
suddenly that was gone

597
00:24:40,830 --> 00:24:37,420
and so I am assuming I have children out

598
00:24:42,360 --> 00:24:40,840
there somewhere and when I was in my 30s

599
00:24:44,700 --> 00:24:42,370
they started taking me on tours of the

600
00:24:47,520 --> 00:24:44,710
ship sometimes because I was learning

601
00:24:49,680 --> 00:24:47,530
not to kick and scream and to ask

602
00:24:50,940 --> 00:24:49,690
questions and be more curious about the

603
00:24:52,590 --> 00:24:50,950
whole situation

604
00:24:55,830 --> 00:24:52,600
and they took me on a tour once of this

605
00:24:59,100 --> 00:24:55,840
room and at the time I was convinced it

606
00:25:02,850 --> 00:24:59,110
was a warehouse and it had big jars of

607
00:25:05,760 --> 00:25:02,860
pears three jars stacked on top of each

608
00:25:09,060 --> 00:25:05,770
other but giant pears and they were

609
00:25:10,860 --> 00:25:09,070
attached with hoses and tubes and there

610
00:25:14,070 --> 00:25:10,870
was a whooshing sound through this whole

611
00:25:15,780 --> 00:25:14,080
warehouse building I couldn't quite

612
00:25:18,030 --> 00:25:15,790
place what it was it sounded vaguely

613
00:25:19,710 --> 00:25:18,040
familiar but for some reason they were

614
00:25:22,110 --> 00:25:19,720
really proud to show me this and it

615
00:25:23,520 --> 00:25:22,120
seemed very important and at the time

616
00:25:25,470 --> 00:25:23,530
it's funny because at the time these

617
00:25:27,830 --> 00:25:25,480
things make perfect sense so giant jars

618
00:25:30,330 --> 00:25:27,840
of pears in a warehouse sure and then

619
00:25:31,980 --> 00:25:30,340
when I woke up the next day and I was

620
00:25:34,710 --> 00:25:31,990
writing it down and I was thinking about

621
00:25:37,200 --> 00:25:34,720
it it occurred to me those weren't pears

622
00:25:39,090 --> 00:25:37,210
those were fetuses and that whooshing

623
00:25:40,860 --> 00:25:39,100
sound was the sound you hear when you're

624
00:25:42,510 --> 00:25:40,870
pregnant and they put the Doppler

625
00:25:45,270 --> 00:25:42,520
machine on your belly and you can hear

626
00:25:48,180 --> 00:25:45,280
the whooshing sound from the umbilical

627
00:25:52,500 --> 00:25:48,190
cord and the mother's heartbeat so those

628
00:25:55,200 --> 00:25:52,510
were jars of fetuses they were very

629
00:25:58,500 --> 00:25:55,210
proud to show me so that was pretty

630
00:26:02,280 --> 00:25:58,510
amazing as far as I know I've never

631
00:26:04,290 --> 00:26:02,290
actually seen hybrid children well

632
00:26:06,570 --> 00:26:04,300
actually maybe I have seen hybrid

633
00:26:08,460 --> 00:26:06,580
children because there was one really

634
00:26:11,190 --> 00:26:08,470
bizarre almost embarrassing kind of

635
00:26:13,620 --> 00:26:11,200
experience where they took me into a

636
00:26:15,090 --> 00:26:13,630
public restroom then alien little grey

637
00:26:18,000 --> 00:26:15,100
alien took me by the hand into this

638
00:26:19,530 --> 00:26:18,010
public restroom and wanted me to show

639
00:26:21,870 --> 00:26:19,540
this little child how to use a toilet

640
00:26:24,240 --> 00:26:21,880
and how to flush it and how to properly

641
00:26:25,920 --> 00:26:24,250
clean themselves and I remember thinking

642
00:26:27,600 --> 00:26:25,930
that's weird because the child looked

643
00:26:30,390 --> 00:26:27,610
about six or seven years old and they

644
00:26:33,120 --> 00:26:30,400
should know how by then but again after

645
00:26:35,370 --> 00:26:33,130
I woke up it occurred to me while aliens

646
00:26:37,830 --> 00:26:35,380
as far as I know they don't eat the way

647
00:26:39,960 --> 00:26:37,840
we do they don't have digestive systems

648
00:26:42,660 --> 00:26:39,970
the way we do so if they have hybrid

649
00:26:45,090 --> 00:26:42,670
children with digestive systems they

650
00:26:46,920 --> 00:26:45,100
don't know how to teach them how to do

651
00:26:49,230 --> 00:26:46,930
these things so they needed a human to

652
00:26:52,710 --> 00:26:49,240
come in and teach them and it just

653
00:26:54,420 --> 00:26:52,720
sounds so bizarre when you talk about it

654
00:26:55,800 --> 00:26:54,430
that's why I think the main reason why a

655
00:26:59,670 --> 00:26:55,810
lot of people don't even talk about it

656
00:27:02,730 --> 00:26:59,680
it's just so weird so they are asking us

657
00:27:04,110 --> 00:27:02,740
to help in this way and they care

658
00:27:04,680 --> 00:27:04,120
they're taking good care of these

659
00:27:07,700 --> 00:27:04,690
children

660
00:27:09,690 --> 00:27:07,710
as a mother myself I should be

661
00:27:11,670 --> 00:27:09,700
traumatized that I might have a child

662
00:27:14,220 --> 00:27:11,680
out there somewhere on some spaceship or

663
00:27:16,050 --> 00:27:14,230
the aliens but it I'm not I'm just very

664
00:27:16,830 --> 00:27:16,060
calmly reassured that everything is as

665
00:27:20,760 --> 00:27:16,840
it should be

666
00:27:23,670 --> 00:27:20,770
everything's good and and calm Otacon ah

667
00:27:25,320 --> 00:27:23,680
there being that I mentioned before for

668
00:27:27,000 --> 00:27:25,330
many many years I thought she was the

669
00:27:28,620 --> 00:27:27,010
ghost of my grandmother both my

670
00:27:31,260 --> 00:27:28,630
grandmother's passed before I was born

671
00:27:34,740 --> 00:27:31,270
and she is a pure white being and she's

672
00:27:36,930 --> 00:27:34,750
transparent very gentle very loving very

673
00:27:39,750 --> 00:27:36,940
nurturing and she didn't give me her

674
00:27:41,520 --> 00:27:39,760
name for the longest time so I would

675
00:27:43,560 --> 00:27:41,530
wake up she'd come to me but usually if

676
00:27:45,020 --> 00:27:43,570
I was sick or upset and she'd sit on my

677
00:27:47,760 --> 00:27:45,030
bedside and maybe stroked my hair

678
00:27:49,650 --> 00:27:47,770
stroked my face and I assumed that's

679
00:27:51,450 --> 00:27:49,660
what a grandmother would do so I just

680
00:27:56,210 --> 00:27:51,460
assumed she was a ghost of one of my

681
00:27:58,920 --> 00:27:56,220
grandmother's and one time around 2007

682
00:28:01,650 --> 00:27:58,930
she was sitting on my bedside and she

683
00:28:03,420 --> 00:28:01,660
had these pretty pretty little lips that

684
00:28:05,310 --> 00:28:03,430
she's never scared me and all of a

685
00:28:09,600 --> 00:28:05,320
sudden she just showed her teeth he's

686
00:28:12,240 --> 00:28:09,610
big huge scary evil pointed white teeth

687
00:28:15,150 --> 00:28:12,250
and I just drew back and I thought well

688
00:28:16,890 --> 00:28:15,160
that's not my grandmother that's an

689
00:28:18,540 --> 00:28:16,900
alien it struck me that's an alien being

690
00:28:22,110 --> 00:28:18,550
and she has the big black eyes so I

691
00:28:23,850 --> 00:28:22,120
should have known and she quickly closed

692
00:28:26,430 --> 00:28:23,860
her mouth she didn't expect to scare me

693
00:28:28,560 --> 00:28:26,440
she was proud of those teeth she wanted

694
00:28:31,170 --> 00:28:28,570
to show me that she had created them

695
00:28:32,760 --> 00:28:31,180
they don't have digestive systems to the

696
00:28:36,180 --> 00:28:32,770
best of my knowledge so they don't need

697
00:28:38,460 --> 00:28:36,190
teeth so she explained to me because she

698
00:28:40,770 --> 00:28:38,470
didn't realize that I'd have this primal

699
00:28:43,320 --> 00:28:40,780
fear of these awful teeth it's like a

700
00:28:45,770 --> 00:28:43,330
primitive reaction that I had and she

701
00:28:49,470 --> 00:28:45,780
told me then that she's a geneticist and

702
00:28:50,940 --> 00:28:49,480
she works with the DNA on earth and she

703
00:28:54,150 --> 00:28:50,950
was so proud that she had created these

704
00:28:57,720 --> 00:28:54,160
teeth she took shark DNA barracuda DNA

705
00:28:59,970 --> 00:28:57,730
and some other mammal a bear or a cougar

706
00:29:01,710 --> 00:28:59,980
or something and had made these very

707
00:29:04,020 --> 00:29:01,720
impressive teeth and wanted to show me

708
00:29:06,330 --> 00:29:04,030
and not realizing how much it wouldn't

709
00:29:09,450 --> 00:29:06,340
upset me but she explained that that's

710
00:29:12,090 --> 00:29:09,460
why she's here that's what she's doing

711
00:29:13,740 --> 00:29:12,100
with earth and she said most of the team

712
00:29:18,060 --> 00:29:13,750
which I'm assuming is the team that

713
00:29:20,670 --> 00:29:18,070
works with me is involved in DNA

714
00:29:23,400 --> 00:29:20,680
all DNA of earth the trees the plants as

715
00:29:25,140 --> 00:29:23,410
well as humans and she looked right at

716
00:29:27,450 --> 00:29:25,150
me with those big black eyes and said

717
00:29:31,230 --> 00:29:27,460
and we're interested in you for your DNA

718
00:29:33,210 --> 00:29:31,240
that just was a shocker a big shocker

719
00:29:37,200 --> 00:29:33,220
it's like what I'm no different from

720
00:29:39,690 --> 00:29:37,210
anyone else and but apparently that's

721
00:29:41,250 --> 00:29:39,700
one of the reasons that they are

722
00:29:44,400 --> 00:29:41,260
following me and it is supposed to

723
00:29:46,770 --> 00:29:44,410
follow certain family lineages they say

724
00:29:49,140 --> 00:29:46,780
that the abductions continue for

725
00:29:53,400 --> 00:29:49,150
generations so I went through 23andme

726
00:29:55,290 --> 00:29:53,410
DNA to see to try to find out and the

727
00:29:57,600 --> 00:29:55,300
only thing I discovered that I didn't

728
00:30:00,990 --> 00:29:57,610
know is that I have Viking blood I have

729
00:30:02,100 --> 00:30:01,000
like 18% Swedish and Danish I was really

730
00:30:04,970 --> 00:30:02,110
excited because I've always been

731
00:30:07,910 --> 00:30:04,980
interested in Vikings and the only other

732
00:30:10,890 --> 00:30:07,920
specific DNA that I know I have is

733
00:30:13,370 --> 00:30:10,900
Scottish Highlander McGregor clan and

734
00:30:15,450 --> 00:30:13,380
they're like warrior people and the

735
00:30:17,190 --> 00:30:15,460
Vikings are warrior people so I don't

736
00:30:19,620 --> 00:30:17,200
know if they're interested in warrior

737
00:30:21,540 --> 00:30:19,630
people or their aliens so it might be

738
00:30:23,400 --> 00:30:21,550
something totally different about the

739
00:30:25,560 --> 00:30:23,410
DNA that they're looking for I I don't

740
00:30:28,560 --> 00:30:25,570
really know but I thought that was

741
00:30:31,440 --> 00:30:28,570
pretty fascinating that she explained at

742
00:30:33,090 --> 00:30:31,450
least why they're doing this when they

743
00:30:35,700 --> 00:30:33,100
showed me the warehouse of the giant

744
00:30:36,900 --> 00:30:35,710
pairs they were extremely proud so I

745
00:30:40,200 --> 00:30:36,910
think they're very proud of their work

746
00:30:43,080 --> 00:30:40,210
with the DNA and the genetics but I

747
00:30:45,360 --> 00:30:43,090
don't really know what their end game is

748
00:30:48,420 --> 00:30:45,370
what their final plan or outcome is for

749
00:30:50,460 --> 00:30:48,430
if they're populating another world if

750
00:30:52,890 --> 00:30:50,470
it's for our future I really don't know

751
00:30:54,480 --> 00:30:52,900
and there I can ask all kinds of

752
00:30:57,330 --> 00:30:54,490
questions but they're not very

753
00:30:58,950 --> 00:30:57,340
forthcoming with the answers and often

754
00:31:01,110 --> 00:30:58,960
I'll ask a question and they'll say it

755
00:31:04,020 --> 00:31:01,120
is not yet time for you to know like

756
00:31:06,480 --> 00:31:04,030
maybe eventually they will tell me but

757
00:31:10,470 --> 00:31:06,490
especially with the giant pairs the

758
00:31:13,020 --> 00:31:10,480
fetuses I was very interested in what

759
00:31:14,430 --> 00:31:13,030
what are they doing with them why where

760
00:31:17,520 --> 00:31:14,440
are they going to take them somewhere

761
00:31:20,610 --> 00:31:17,530
why did they even show me but they just

762
00:31:22,140 --> 00:31:20,620
were very they just were proud of their

763
00:31:24,270 --> 00:31:22,150
work and wanted me to see it but that

764
00:31:27,180 --> 00:31:24,280
was about the extent of the knowledge

765
00:31:29,580 --> 00:31:27,190
they'd share with me about that one

766
00:31:31,470 --> 00:31:29,590
evening I was feeling a little down and

767
00:31:33,630 --> 00:31:31,480
out and discouraged you know life

768
00:31:35,580 --> 00:31:33,640
life is hard sometimes and then I was

769
00:31:40,020 --> 00:31:35,590
diagnosed with this illness that has no

770
00:31:42,510 --> 00:31:40,030
cure and I've read of other people who

771
00:31:44,580 --> 00:31:42,520
have had impact with aliens and they

772
00:31:47,220 --> 00:31:44,590
told them to go away leave him alone and

773
00:31:49,080 --> 00:31:47,230
they did but they never left me alone

774
00:31:51,450 --> 00:31:49,090
even though I asked them to and I begged

775
00:31:53,130 --> 00:31:51,460
them to and of course now I look forward

776
00:31:55,050 --> 00:31:53,140
to it and now I love them and I love the

777
00:31:57,000 --> 00:31:55,060
experience but when I was younger I

778
00:31:58,830 --> 00:31:57,010
think they traumatized me and that might

779
00:32:02,690 --> 00:31:58,840
partly bill I have an autoimmune disease

780
00:32:05,820 --> 00:32:02,700
today that bodily trauma and so I was

781
00:32:08,940 --> 00:32:05,830
discouraged with life struggling one

782
00:32:10,950 --> 00:32:08,950
night and I was asking crow why why me

783
00:32:12,960 --> 00:32:10,960
why did you guys pick me for this and if

784
00:32:14,340 --> 00:32:12,970
I created my own reality I certainly

785
00:32:16,830 --> 00:32:14,350
wouldn't have created a lifetime of

786
00:32:19,310 --> 00:32:16,840
struggle and difficulty and I went to

787
00:32:21,240 --> 00:32:19,320
sleep and croak came to me and he

788
00:32:23,700 --> 00:32:21,250
sometimes I believe they take me

789
00:32:24,990 --> 00:32:23,710
actually by the body the whole body to

790
00:32:27,240 --> 00:32:25,000
the ship because I'll wake up with

791
00:32:30,600 --> 00:32:27,250
bruises and marks other times I feel

792
00:32:33,270 --> 00:32:30,610
quote whooshes me up out of my body like

793
00:32:35,430 --> 00:32:33,280
just my spirit or whatever is taken to

794
00:32:37,560 --> 00:32:35,440
the astral plane and I felt at this time

795
00:32:41,370 --> 00:32:37,570
I felt being washed out of my body and

796
00:32:43,520 --> 00:32:41,380
with croak by my side zipping paths out

797
00:32:45,870 --> 00:32:43,530
of the earth into the sky and the stars

798
00:32:48,180 --> 00:32:45,880
like zooming out from Google Earth

799
00:32:50,520 --> 00:32:48,190
exactly like that until you're just in

800
00:32:52,230 --> 00:32:50,530
the blackness with the Stars and just

801
00:32:55,080 --> 00:32:52,240
hovering there well I caught my breath

802
00:32:57,900 --> 00:32:55,090
for a minute and then he brought me to

803
00:33:00,180 --> 00:32:57,910
this place it was this landmass just

804
00:33:02,280 --> 00:33:00,190
floating out in space not a planet or

805
00:33:04,020 --> 00:33:02,290
anything just a landmass there was an

806
00:33:06,810 --> 00:33:04,030
ocean there were mountains it was a

807
00:33:08,730 --> 00:33:06,820
fertile Green Valley and we came in

808
00:33:10,590 --> 00:33:08,740
closer and closer and as we got closer I

809
00:33:12,510 --> 00:33:10,600
could hear drumming and I could hear

810
00:33:15,270 --> 00:33:12,520
people talking it was like joyful

811
00:33:17,010 --> 00:33:15,280
celebration and then in the valley I

812
00:33:19,800 --> 00:33:17,020
could see there was his house its big

813
00:33:22,860 --> 00:33:19,810
long like an old-time Viking long house

814
00:33:25,650 --> 00:33:22,870
a big wooden house and on the inside

815
00:33:29,100 --> 00:33:25,660
when we went inside there were fire pits

816
00:33:31,050 --> 00:33:29,110
and torches just like what you'd picture

817
00:33:33,510 --> 00:33:31,060
the Vikings to have a big feast and

818
00:33:35,640 --> 00:33:33,520
celebration a big huge heavy wood and

819
00:33:39,210 --> 00:33:35,650
table in the middle of the room laden

820
00:33:42,560 --> 00:33:39,220
with platters and goblets and candelabra

821
00:33:45,360 --> 00:33:42,570
and crow told me this was your pre-birth

822
00:33:47,010 --> 00:33:45,370
party and all the souls in there

823
00:33:50,670 --> 00:33:47,020
we're celebrating me in this lifetime

824
00:33:53,370 --> 00:33:50,680
that I'm experiencing and I was at the

825
00:33:55,500 --> 00:33:53,380
head of a table I was me but I wasn't me

826
00:33:57,540 --> 00:33:55,510
I was I guess in spirit form and I had

827
00:34:00,540 --> 00:33:57,550
three spirit guides with me and they

828
00:34:02,640 --> 00:34:00,550
handed me this big golden platter and

829
00:34:05,340 --> 00:34:02,650
they handed me a set of big golden tongs

830
00:34:08,970 --> 00:34:05,350
and guided me towards this big table and

831
00:34:12,540 --> 00:34:08,980
I looked out and it wasn't food or drink

832
00:34:15,540 --> 00:34:12,550
it was life choices and life experiences

833
00:34:16,980 --> 00:34:15,550
and I was to take the tongs and choose

834
00:34:19,500 --> 00:34:16,990
who's going to be my best friend in

835
00:34:21,360 --> 00:34:19,510
third grade who am I going to marry

836
00:34:23,850 --> 00:34:21,370
where am I going to live and this huge

837
00:34:26,730 --> 00:34:23,860
table with so many options and so many

838
00:34:27,270 --> 00:34:26,740
choices of things on earth for one

839
00:34:30,119 --> 00:34:27,280
lifetime

840
00:34:33,360 --> 00:34:30,129
and he told me there are certain things

841
00:34:35,760 --> 00:34:33,370
that are set that are not a free will

842
00:34:39,270 --> 00:34:35,770
choices who my parents were going to be

843
00:34:41,879 --> 00:34:39,280
certain astrological influences and for

844
00:34:44,850 --> 00:34:41,889
this lifetime alien contact lifetime

845
00:34:47,610 --> 00:34:44,860
alien contact I wasn't getting out of it

846
00:34:49,680 --> 00:34:47,620
so it was preset it was a pre birth

847
00:34:51,659 --> 00:34:49,690
agreement but I chose a lot of other

848
00:34:54,119 --> 00:34:51,669
things and I went around the table and I

849
00:34:56,159 --> 00:34:54,129
chose divorce and I set the tongs down

850
00:34:58,200 --> 00:34:56,169
and then I went back to choose a second

851
00:34:59,550 --> 00:34:58,210
divorce and my spirit guide kind of

852
00:35:01,290 --> 00:34:59,560
tapped me on the shoulder and said don't

853
00:35:03,540 --> 00:35:01,300
you think that's a little overwhelming

854
00:35:06,420 --> 00:35:03,550
for one lifetime and I was so arrogant

855
00:35:08,760 --> 00:35:06,430
and I said no I can handle this I can

856
00:35:10,890 --> 00:35:08,770
handle all this and I loaded up you know

857
00:35:12,840 --> 00:35:10,900
financial difficulties and chronic

858
00:35:14,760 --> 00:35:12,850
illness and my spirit guide kind of

859
00:35:15,800 --> 00:35:14,770
tapped me on the shoulder and said don't

860
00:35:18,630 --> 00:35:15,810
you think that's a little bit

861
00:35:20,520 --> 00:35:18,640
overwhelming and I said no no I can

862
00:35:23,430 --> 00:35:20,530
handle that I was so arrogant because

863
00:35:24,900 --> 00:35:23,440
from out there looking in on earth life

864
00:35:27,930 --> 00:35:24,910
it's like I want to experience at all I

865
00:35:30,090 --> 00:35:27,940
want to know everything and then the

866
00:35:31,950 --> 00:35:30,100
spirit guys are kind of rolling their

867
00:35:33,690 --> 00:35:31,960
eyes behind my back because they were

868
00:35:35,880 --> 00:35:33,700
gonna be the ones guiding me through

869
00:35:37,560 --> 00:35:35,890
this life and knowing I was going to

870
00:35:40,440 --> 00:35:37,570
pass through the veil of forgetting when

871
00:35:41,760 --> 00:35:40,450
I'm born and whining and moaning and

872
00:35:44,640 --> 00:35:41,770
complaining about how hard my life is

873
00:35:45,900 --> 00:35:44,650
when actually I chose it all I I did

874
00:35:48,630 --> 00:35:45,910
choose it all so when people say you

875
00:35:50,370 --> 00:35:48,640
create you in reality I used to not

876
00:35:53,070 --> 00:35:50,380
really believe it but from a higher

877
00:35:55,560 --> 00:35:53,080
perspective from that perspective I can

878
00:35:57,660 --> 00:35:55,570
see where it does make sense and they

879
00:35:58,680 --> 00:35:57,670
also explained it was almost like

880
00:36:02,280 --> 00:35:58,690
setting up a game of

881
00:36:04,620 --> 00:36:02,290
knobbly because you know we all have

882
00:36:06,270 --> 00:36:04,630
free will here you know you be the

883
00:36:07,980 --> 00:36:06,280
banker you count out the money all by

884
00:36:10,020 --> 00:36:07,990
Park Place it was kind of like that

885
00:36:12,510 --> 00:36:10,030
setting it up because I made these

886
00:36:14,880 --> 00:36:12,520
choices but I was going to pass through

887
00:36:17,819 --> 00:36:14,890
the veil of forgetting and then I was

888
00:36:20,250 --> 00:36:17,829
going to have free will and everyone

889
00:36:21,750 --> 00:36:20,260
else was going to have free will so you

890
00:36:24,059 --> 00:36:21,760
could have chosen that you would marry

891
00:36:26,010 --> 00:36:24,069
this certain person but their parents

892
00:36:28,050 --> 00:36:26,020
have the free will they might have

893
00:36:29,579 --> 00:36:28,060
chosen to move off to a different state

894
00:36:32,130 --> 00:36:29,589
and you never met that person so you

895
00:36:34,260 --> 00:36:32,140
never married them and so it's it's

896
00:36:36,870 --> 00:36:34,270
almost like setting up a game before

897
00:36:39,290 --> 00:36:36,880
you're born and then the players go in

898
00:36:41,730 --> 00:36:39,300
and forget what they chose and it's and

899
00:36:45,569 --> 00:36:41,740
the aliens have told me I take things

900
00:36:47,370 --> 00:36:45,579
far too seriously it's just a game and

901
00:36:48,960 --> 00:36:47,380
when it's over we're all going to get

902
00:36:51,839 --> 00:36:48,970
together and laugh about it and

903
00:36:54,000 --> 00:36:51,849
reminisce and but well we're in it it's

904
00:36:57,750 --> 00:36:54,010
it just seems so serious all the time

905
00:37:00,540 --> 00:36:57,760
but it's just we've made certain choices

906
00:37:02,670 --> 00:37:00,550
but then we forgot we made them and then

907
00:37:05,400 --> 00:37:02,680
all of us have free will to choose

908
00:37:08,250 --> 00:37:05,410
different things so it's it's pretty

909
00:37:10,020 --> 00:37:08,260
chaotic but that's part of the intrigue

910
00:37:12,120 --> 00:37:10,030
about living on earth it's why so many

911
00:37:14,220 --> 00:37:12,130
souls want to come and have an earth

912
00:37:18,150 --> 00:37:14,230
life experience because it's pretty wild

913
00:37:21,210 --> 00:37:18,160
it's a wild game and so the alien

914
00:37:24,059 --> 00:37:21,220
contact was definitely programmed in for

915
00:37:25,650 --> 00:37:24,069
me and no getting out of it and now I'm

916
00:37:28,290 --> 00:37:25,660
finally doing what I was supposed to do

917
00:37:31,260 --> 00:37:28,300
it took about thirty years to get just

918
00:37:33,150 --> 00:37:31,270
past the fear and then I started writing

919
00:37:35,579 --> 00:37:33,160
notes and believing that this might

920
00:37:38,309 --> 00:37:35,589
really be happening and finally got the

921
00:37:41,880 --> 00:37:38,319
book published and now I'm out talking

922
00:37:44,010 --> 00:37:41,890
openly about it and apparently that was

923
00:37:47,069 --> 00:37:44,020
the whole plan all along just to make it

924
00:37:48,690 --> 00:37:47,079
kind of safe if I can do it if I can get

925
00:37:51,839 --> 00:37:48,700
past the fear and get out there and talk

926
00:37:54,359 --> 00:37:51,849
about it then anybody can and that's

927
00:37:58,020 --> 00:37:54,369
kind of pretty much what my mission was

928
00:37:59,550 --> 00:37:58,030
so but they do still come and have

929
00:38:03,329 --> 00:37:59,560
contact with me usually if they have

930
00:38:05,579 --> 00:38:03,339
messages that they want to bring but I

931
00:38:06,990 --> 00:38:05,589
feel like the bulk of it is is kind of

932
00:38:09,480 --> 00:38:07,000
in the past and it's a little sad

933
00:38:11,490 --> 00:38:09,490
because I miss the contact but they do

934
00:38:12,450 --> 00:38:11,500
answer questions if I have really

935
00:38:16,280 --> 00:38:12,460
important or press